Thursday, December 03, 2009
To weigh in or NOT to weigh in...
Struggled with this first thing this morning thinking: hmmm...if I give myself a week off from the scale I can use the time to whack away at the weight I gained during my travels and the number won't be so fearsome...
But! Shouldn't I *KNOW* what I'm up against...?
Aight: scale it is!
...and I just couldn't BELIEVE how BADLY I had slipped!
My next reaction, habitual, was to get beyond the shock, be ashamed and consider just buckling down on getting the pounds off and never sharing with anyone what had happened.
Well that's too much like the bad old days, bad old ways...I remember reading somewhere a fellow saying that fighting against habits, doing the OPPOSITE of what one is inclined to do is how we can grow and develop.
So here I am putting it out there: FIFTEEN POUNDS! In less than a week I blew through almost ALL the weight I had lost during my efforts to get beyond my plateau of 226. Thankfully, I'm still ahead of that at 220, but have been hanging my head and kicking myself in the butt.
And then moving myself into the direction I always find useful: what can I learn from this costly mistake? What factors played into such POOR choices?
--- I got a bit TOO confident in my abilities to manage my weight, thinking that I could allow myself more latitude for a few days and get right back to my healthy lifestyle without paying TOO costly a price. WRONG!
--- Although I made a lot of healthy food choices, I played too much of an "ostrich" over the BAD food choices, sorta thinking magically that the grilled salmon, yogurt, strawberries, apples, etc. would cancel out the...BAD stuff. WRONG!
--- I tossed out my workout routine. It was hardly an inactive time for me...much walking, rock climbing, etc. but again, thinking that this equated to the type of efforts I put into my workouts...at least close enough, right? WRONG!
--- I stopped tracking...just a few days, no prob, right? WRONG!
--- I didn't follow my inspiration. I had a though early one morning how cool it might be to get out in shorts and t-shirt and walk-jog through the city...but never got beyond the thought, never put it into action. Next time I've got to PUSH myself into DOING IT!
--- I played with fire: allowed myself some of the very foods I KNOW are my trigger foods, those sugary sweet highly processed carbie things. Foods that turn off my "enough is enough" trigger and open the bottomless pit. Just like an alcoholic and alcohol: I just can't *TOUCH* this stuff!
I'm still sifting through this to gain whatever lessons I can. Still shaking my head at times over how FRIGHTFULLY EASY it can be to BLOW IT! Yet, reminding myself that one HUGE step forward for me is that in the bad old days I would still be spiraling downward for years to come...not so now:
I've STOPPED! I'm BACK! Tracking the food, strength training, back on my 'mill, jammin' to my tunes and reclaiming my SPARK!
I *WILL* get to ONEderland! Even if not by the year's end, not TOO far beyond!
Be careful out there folks...it can be so, SO easy to get lost along the way!