Thursday, December 03, 2009
So like quite a few people I see on here... and other places... I lost track of my weight loss goals... and just sank back into the "normal" lifestyle I had been living.
I'm stopping that once again. While last time my heart was surely in the right place, my will was still not completely there. Not only did I start slow, but I think I went TOO slow. I wouldn't think there was such a thing, but I wasn't keeping up with my low goals I had created.
All of that is behind me now. I forgive myself for not sticking to my goals. I am ok with who I am and acknowledge the place that I'm starting once again. It's really important to focus on the future than any types of failures of the past. Sure, it stinks that I didn't hold to it, but you know what? It's ok. I'm going to do it this time.
So here's my plan. I realized after Thanksgiving that I didn't gain any weight during the holiday... crazy, huh? I was watching what I was eating, but not because I had to..but because I wanted to. I finally got to a place in my life where I just wasn't happy with how things were going. I've been maintaining my weight at this level because I've been paying closer attention to what I've been eating. Now it's time to lower my weight!
A good friend invited me to the gym on Black Friday, and I went (instead of shopping...or standing in line!). I actually enjoyed the experience so much that by Monday, I had my own gym membership at his gym. Now I don't want to say that everything will be perfect or that I'll never mess up, but this past week of working out has actually been fulfilling. He has been training me on how to lose weight as well as build muscle.
Before, while having a very solid concept of walking and getting exercise, I didn't really keep much in the way of accountability. But this is what it DID do... at that time, I cut sodas out of my system. I cut most salts out of my system. I slowed down on "super sizing" nearly everything I'd eat. I realized that the amount of food I put into my system was really the issue.
The seed was planted then and my workouts today wouldn't have happened had my first attempt not happened. I've not come a long way in weight loss just yet, but I will. And I will because I'm doing it right and realizing how much I actually enjoy what it is that's happening.
The hardest part of this fresh start is waiting to see the results. I want to see them already, but the truth is that I have to wait awhile before I start to see anything happen. I'm learning to be ok with that.
Well, no pictures today... but I want everyone to walk away with this. Forgive what has happened to you... don't focus on what you missed or what you ate that you shouldn't have... FORGIVE yourself and start fresh. I am.