Wednesday, December 02, 2009
The past couple of days have been so hard. I've been in the bed sick for the past couple of days and been doing horribly with my eating. You would think that when you are sick you wouldn't want to eat, but not me. It's been so horrible, like the old me...pizza, fries, burger, you name the worst possible food and I've eaten it. Now I'm heart sick too. I haven't behaved this way in over 6 months and I don't know what to think of myself.
I don't know what has gotten into me, slacking off a bit for the holiday weekend or getting sick. It's like I've turned into the old Denise thinking about food, planning my next junk food meal, actually eating that junk food.
Last night I broke down in tears.....and STILL ate the pizza. I cried while eating eating!! What? I don't know how but I've got to get my control back. I'm hoping tomorrow I'll have the strength to go to gym. That should straighten me up. I sure hope so.