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Having a hard time.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

The past couple of days have been so hard. I've been in the bed sick for the past couple of days and been doing horribly with my eating. You would think that when you are sick you wouldn't want to eat, but not me. It's been so horrible, like the old, fries, burger, you name the worst possible food and I've eaten it. Now I'm heart sick too. I haven't behaved this way in over 6 months and I don't know what to think of myself.

I don't know what has gotten into me, slacking off a bit for the holiday weekend or getting sick. It's like I've turned into the old Denise thinking about food, planning my next junk food meal, actually eating that junk food.

Last night I broke down in tears.....and STILL ate the pizza. I cried while eating eating!! What? I don't know how but I've got to get my control back. I'm hoping tomorrow I'll have the strength to go to gym. That should straighten me up. I sure hope so.
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    Gosh! Sounds like me too, I've felt sluggish, but still I had to order pizza, chose a thin crust, but still ate the whole large pizza with the works in one day. Thank you for printing your problem, made me wake up and say Me Too! Together, we, all of us will get over this stumbling block, get back on the ball and go down down down. We can do it.

    Read your back on track So proud of you! emoticon
    3000 days ago
    Oh WOW!! That has soooo been me for the last few weeks. I got sick AND ate more while I was, I DID slack off because of Thanksgiving and I know it (gained 7 freakin' pounds between being sick and the holiday!), and then I just feel lousy (and mad at me!)!! I can just sympathize with you and say that "WE CAN GET BACK ON TRACK AND DO THIS~WE HAVE TO!!!!!! Just know I'm there going through with you!! This is where for a permanent lifestyle change we have to accept it as what has happened and how we have handled it and go back to doing what we know we have to do to meet our goals. I believe there will always be these little "glitches" along the way and we have be ready and waiting to straighten things back out and go even further the right way!! OH YES, WE CAN DO IT!! You've proven that you can!! I've proven that I can! So let's just DO!!!!!!
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    3006 days ago
  • DARA52
    Hi Denise! Exactly, what's different is that you wrote about it. Just get up tomorrow and even if you don't feel like going to the gym, take a walk. Just doing something will help you feel better. Make a plan for your meals that day and put them in the tracker. It's harder to cheat that way. :) I know because when I was sick I didn't track and I got off plan. I started tracking yesterday and started reading posts and I'm picking up speed. I'm headed out for my 2nd walk and I even felt like cleaning my laundry room. You'll be okay. I know you'll do fine!
    3006 days ago
    I am the same way when I get sick, most people chill in bed with orange juice, I want a cheeseburger! I don't know why. Don't be too discourgaged-- the fact that youre opening up is a good sign. What makes the difference is the decision your make -- to get back on the wagon and stop what youre doing? or to keep making bad food decisions? you're gonna be just fine,I know it. don't be so hard on yourself, we all have these days. and you're going to have them forever. that's why sparking is more than dieting, it's the way you're living. as long as you turn everything around, no worries. and even if you find you can't, all your sparkfriends are gonna support the heck out of you anyway. ;)
    3007 days ago
    It sounds like you need to give yourself a little break!! It is too much to expect that you could lie there and "be good" at the same time. If you can work out a little tomorrow, you can get back on track, but consider giving yourself permission ("baby yourself") to have a different behavior when you are sick. I know it is right after the holiday, but if you limit the "baddies" to the illness or decide that by Thurs the spree is OVER, you can get back. I think the trick is not to expect permanent future perfection, but rather to limit the regression to the old ways and get back on track!!

    FEEL BETTER!! Lighten up -- literally!!
    3007 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear that you were sick, that's never fun. Don't feel bad about yourself for having a small sidetrack and eating some food that was bad for you. We all have those days. What's important is that we rectify the problem and move on from it and don't dwell on it. I know you can do it. Don't give up.

    3007 days ago
    Sorry to hear that you are sick. When I get sick I can't eat but when I'm feeling better that's when I want the junk food.

    Don't beat yourself up too bad. We all have days like this.

    Just remember that drinking water actually speeds the weight loss.

    Get back on track tomorrow and do good.

    You can do it.!!!!!!! Trust in yourself that you want to get the pounds off.

    Let's get this weight off. emoticon emoticon
    3007 days ago
    Denise, I read your blog you're doing exactly what I do when I get a migraine nothing can relieve (ok drugs help a wee bit) but for the real pain to diminish I need junk, fried food !!! Your system is out of whack right now with being sick, for tommorow is a new day even if you just go outside for a short walk it will be good for you. As Sierra said, believe in yourself, you can do this. Sending you positive vibes to get better !!!! emoticon
    3007 days ago
  • SIERRA924
    Stay strong and fight off the fillings of wanting to eat! You can do it, just believe in yourself! Hope you get to feeling better soon!
    3007 days ago
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