Monday, November 30, 2009
I need to take a minute to vent my frustrations.
O.K., so for one, I am very frustrated with myself and my lack of motivation this past year. I don't know why, but I truly just couldn't get out of my own way.
Finally, I get the kick in the pants I need from a dear SP friend (thanks Jan)... and was really starting to get excited for embarking on a new chapter as this year comes to a close.
So, what happens? My body decides "ha ha on you!" I don't know if it is stress, but my hip went out on me and the pain that ensued was immense. At first, I was really scared. I thought I did something major (that's how bad the pain was). After suffering in pain for a couple of days I decided to go to the doc and to my relief I am told it is merely a pinched nerve. However, there are no guarantees and if it doesn't start to feel better by the end of the week... oh, I don't even want to think about that... I am going to focus on getting better.
With that said, now I have to stay off the hip because any weight on it causes extreme pain. Rest, Ice and Ibuprofen is what I have been prescribed. This bums me out because I want to move. I finally have the desire to move... and I can't.
There in lies my frustration. When I could have cared less about moving my body, I could without any issues. Now that I have the true desire to do something about this weight that I carry around, my body is revolting (I almost feel like it is punishing me for letting is stay sedentary for so long).
I guess I'm having my own little pity party right now. But truly it is more frustration than pity at this point.
This too shall pass... right???