Monday, November 30, 2009
Today I have decided to let go of the pain I have inside of me. The pain that eats me up and keeps me from being strong. This pain is the source of my depression and unhappiness. It prevents me from being healthy and is the source of my weight gain. I no longer want to be a victim to this. I am consciously taking control over it so that I can lose weight and be the happy and healthy person I know myself to be. I have a history of starting and stopping, but today I choose to not focus on that negative past, but rather on the strength and positivity of today and of my future. Today is a new me...I will always have the pain that comes from the loss of my mom, but no longer will I let it defeat me. My mom wouldn't have wanted that for me, nor do I want that for myself. It stops today - it has to.