I Rebel, I Eat, and Then I Realize New Things
Sunday, November 29, 2009
After a year of eating better and doing other healthier things, I sometimes feel that I have come so far. And other times, not so much. It's like that saying about the more I know, the more I realize there is so much more to learn.
I've learned how to fall off the wagon and get up again. I've also learned that, even when I think that I have fallen, it's not as bad now as it was on my best day then. In other words, I've lost a lot of my piglet ways.
With that said, there have been many deaths of dear ones in the past couple of years -6 - (on top of my own non-stop challenges). As I've learned to deal with the grief a lot better, I also have three more who are currently in stage 4. As a result of all this, I sometimes take on an attitude that life's too short to deprive myself - of anything! (smiling) Of course, if I'd continued to eat unhealthy, I would have made that life a lot shorter.
What I realized over this past 4-day weekend is that, even when I allowed myself to have that which I usually don't eat, it was like forcing myself to enjoy it. In other words, I didn't enjoy all that sugar anymore. I wanted to enjoy it, but my body and mind really don't want it that much.
That was a VERY important lesson to learn. And relearn as often as it takes. It's truly a one day at a time thing.
And to that rebel in me that sometimes doesn't want to do SP anymore, who gets sick of tracking, blogging, and logging in - tough darts. That's what'll keep me on the straight and narrow until this healthy lifestyle becomes ingrained. It's like doing the tough love thing to the child within.
I'm learning in baby steps. (smiling) Wishing all a wonderful day.