Sunday, November 29, 2009
On Wed of this week, I was doing my normal workout routine on the treadmill. I completed the routine with no problems; however, when I stepped off the treadmill, I twisted my knee. I didn't think it was to bad and went on with my workout. Thursday when I got up.....it was really swollen and really painful. I spent the day icing and resting.......thought that would help. When I got up early to go shopping on Friday morning, my knee was still extremely swollen and hurt even worse. I finally broke down (with some nudging from my husband) and went to the doctor Friday afternoon. She checked it over and decided that it appears I have a small tear in the tendon. She put me in a brace and advised me to take it easy. I have been struggling with my weightloss and fear that if I don't atleast get a walk in every day, I am going to "fall" off the wagon. I haven't listened to the doctor and in fact have been continuing with my mile walk a day (just a little slower though). I feel like I am letting my whole team down and myself if I don't try. I guess I am just so frustrated with myself for getting hurt. It wouldn't be so bad if I had done it while working out.....but while getting off the treadmill......I feel really stupid. I just want to go and scream at the top of my lungs becasue I don't know what to do. Every one tells me to take it easy.....but I am finding that very difficult to do. How can I let my friends and teammates down? How can I let my dogs down? How can I let myself down? UGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!