Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Last week I bought a big bag of Doritos Cool Ranch for my little boys. I'm not a chips kinda girl. I'll eat them if I want them, but that's hardly ever. Well, since they had been sitting on the counter for a few days, unopened, I decided to open them and eat a handful. No big deal. The next night I did the same thing. And the next night. And the next night. A handful. They were really good, I guess that's why I kept going back night after night. Then one night, I was helping my 5 y/o with his homework and I grabbed the whole bag and sat down with him. I was eating and munching, eating and crunching, eating and smacking... I ate just about the whole bag except for a few more chips in the bottom of the bag. I did manage to pass a few to my son. Afterwards, I just kinda looked at the bag amazed. I started feeling guilty because I've never done that before. Then as I was putting the bag away, I realized I was satisfied. I had had my fill of chips. They were good to me. And every night when I would go back, I was just teasing the craving I had instead of indulging in it and getting it over with. Well... guess what, no more chip craving. It left once I put the bag away. I can look at chips now, the way I did before... no desire. I don't know what that was all about. But I did realize that sometimes we can deprive our bodies of things too long or too much. SOMETIMES. Not all the time. Just like cravings, if we keep fighting them, they never truly go away. But if we satisfy the craving, it will go away and it won't come back for awhile.
I woke up the next morning and got on the scale to see I hadn't lost or gained 1 pound from those chips. It's when we go back again and again to satisfy a craving that was gone already, when the problem begins. So I've learned, to allow myself the chance enjoy some things and not look at food as the enemy. I made food my best friend and my worst enemy. Now we're just associates that see each other from time to time.