Someone somewhere is trying to tell me something.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Hey Sparkers, I hope all is well with everyone. Today is Day 9 of Chalean Extreme thus it is a rest day. Now usually I would do some cardio but that was not happening today. Let me tell you why well yesterday was Burn Circuit 1 which is a lot of upper body ST and I totally rocked that out yesterday, well last night I took a long shower washed my hair and braided it up. I was feeling good last night but this morning when I woke up to do my hair I could barely lift my arms above my head and when I did I could only keep them that way for less than half a second. Its crazy I felt like I was lifting again today when all I was lifting was my own body weight. I hurt all over from my arms to my abs but this just means I'm working something.
Anyway I sat on my bed stared at myself in the mirror (mycloset doors are floor to ceiling mirrors-- this can be good and bad depending on which of my alter egos shows up that day (the outter big girl of the fit chick ready to bust loose) Sorry I know I went all off the subject in that extra long sentence and here I am threatening to do it with this one, okay back to the subject so here I was starring at myself in the mirror when I swear for a spilt second I didn't recognize my reflection. No I am not crazy, but I did have a glimpse I should say into my future. I saw who I was trying to be, you know the fit chick that not only has her weight in check but her finances, personal life, etc. I saw all of this for a minute and it made me smile, I think was the fit chick's way of telling me hey its okay to rest this one day but if you don't get off you but and move the next day you will never achieve your goals. I have so much I want to do this is only the beginning of my journey and I know I will get there.
Now on to the randomness. When I decided to start working out on a full time basis I knew many thing in my life was going to have to change. The main change in with my hair. You see I have really thick hair and when I do workout I sweat alot. There is no way on my non budjet that I could afford the upkeep of said hair in the fashion it is accustomed to so I decided in September to let my relaxer grow out and return to a natural state. This is by far one of the biggest decisions hair wise I have made in a long time but I am determined to stick with it. So far so good.
More randomness my last night after the house got real quiet I noticed my mood was starting to go to that dark place where allI see and think about is nothing positive. I almost got sucked into this dark place but I looked at the sleeping child next to me and found my light. I know I am biased but this child has the most infectious smile I have ever seen.
Anyway I just looked at him once again knew somehow life was going to be okay, yeah there are going to be some tough times but the sun will come out again.
As if this wasn't enough my phone rang and the ring tone was Mary Mary In the Morning was playing. So I believe someone somewhere was trying to tell me something because I had three signs in less than 24hours that everything was going to be okay.
So the moral of this long drawn out blog is to never give up no matter what is going on in your life. I have been t0 the bottom and I am slowly digging myself out of this whole so the way I see it is I have no where to go but up from here.
Until next time,