And this one is about... letting go.

I've talked before about emotional things that are bugging me and I think, in some ways, holding me back. Because I stress more about them than I do me. I spend more time thinking about the issues, concentrating on them, not getting other things done because of them, than I do on me (and my schoolwork which is not a stress at all at this point - and NEEDS to be).

The problem is... I don't know how. I don't know how to cut the ties and just... be done. And on this one, I'm thinking of a very specific person. Christine and I have talked about the confusion of the situation, but tonight, and frequently, it's a situation that just... hurts. And there is simply no dealing with it anymore.

So now I need to write a paper and I find.... I'm distracted. Which means my personal 3am deadline is about to die.

But I'm going to work on it. Part of this process is about finding those emotional triggers that got me fat in the first place. TBL says it every week and I've never connected it to myself. But maybe it's time I did.

What are my triggers? And how do I come to terms with them? How do I let them go?

I'm going to be a healthier me, both outside and inside. Because I have amazing friends, a strong moral code, and hope.