So I have been super stressed about money lately. Yea, my fiance finally got a job as stocker at Kroger which is great!!! And I am so proud of him for taking a minimum wage job when his last job brought in 3x's as much money! It is a big difference but we really need the money and have been trying to get a job for him for months. But he hasn't started yet and I am still very stressed about money. All the bills and Christmas is coming and blah blah blah. Too much. Plus it doesn't ever help me when somebody tells me to stay calm or try not to get stressed. I don't know why, but that always makes it worse. Like if I am really worked up about something and angry, it does NOT help if someone tells me to calm down. Y? Anybody else like that? It's frustrating because I know they are right. I shouldn't let little things bug me. Like this morning I spoke with an absolutely rude lady on the phone about my car payments that I just wanted to knock over the head with a big rock!! Why must people be so freaking rude?!? She got me so worked up I hung up on her and right then my mom called me and I was crying while telling her what happened. Yesterday afternoon I was upset about other stuff too (all related to money of course) but when I got home I went for a walk (my 2nd walk since I stopped back in April). I did 4 miles and felt pretty good. When I got home I was in a good mood. So maybe that is the key, i don't know. I am going to start walking again in December to train for the Avon Walk for breast cancer again. So I am taking it slow right now with the walking cause once I start my training my life as ALL about walking and nothing else lol Which is why I stopped walking in April because I was tired of the previous 4 months where I couldn't do anything else untill I got my miles done for the day. Which is how I lost all my weight cause of that determination, but it got tiring. So I am about to start that again and can hopefully lose a couple more pounds doing that. Just around my tummy area and arms and I be good. Plus when I walk my leg muscles are awesome!! lol I should be getting my engagment pictures on cd any day now, I will post them when I get it. I am really excited about this weekend. Miller and Stephanie are coming in town for her birthday. It will be super fun. Me and her have tickets to see the matinee show of New Moon on Saturday then later that night we all have reservations at Buca di Beppo for dinner with friends. Then back to our house for drinks and pool. Looking forward to it sooo much! Hanging out with them always relieves my stress and we just have a good time.
I am so thankfull for my family, good friends and Brandon!