Monday, November 16, 2009
Just an update for y'all:
Well I'm only on Lazropram now (and that's from 1-2 mg depending upon the stress of my day). Zoloft from 100 mg to 50 mg and now to 0 mg.
Over the last few days, I've have still suffered from great muscle tension, tension headaches and a that feeling of not being able to clear my ears from the pressure (like some kind of "head cold") ...
I made the decision when I seemed to be going well after overcoming the first period of reducing Zoloft. I was without the meds for a day, and I said to myself: "What the f..., let's try to zero and see what happens. I've made it this far ok."
Well, BIG probelms with my girlfriend and eventhough I am reduced to tears sometimes the issues we are dealing with seem to me to merit them.
I hope it's not the depression sneaking in :S I am ok, no desires to knock myself off or hurt myself either, so this is all good (my PDoc was worried for me... and PS: I can call at any moment and get help if I "fall in a 'black hole' or have big problems.... "socialized" Italian health care at times is great and 100% FREE for those that really need :) )
So I'm watching myself closely, trying not to eat to cover up my emotions, to not build a wall around me, let my girlfriend always in and at the same time know that I (like all of you) are worthwhile no matter what!!! Even in the case she doesn't want to be with me and we break up :(
It will be ok and I thank you all for being here to give me a listen and all and suggestions are well appreciated.