Sunday, November 15, 2009
I am trying to figure out why I do not have that positive little voice inside me. Where is the woman within that should be encouraging me to exercise every morning, or to chose a better snacky in the evening, to make sure I have had all my water. I seem to always start off with such gusto that it is odd that I never follow through on things anymore. I think that woman within has been bound, gagged and thrown in a dark room, so that I enjoy life without consequences. That is the only conclusion I can gather at this point.
I need to find a way to get her out of there - because I know honestly I can still enjoy life, but with healthier choices. It came to my attention as I updated information either here or on the wii fit, that I have shrunk an inch and a half - and it's not anywhere I would have wished either! I am not sure when it started - but for the last 10 years I have been under the impression that I was 5'4.5" tall. Apparently I am only 5'3" now. I know we shrink with age eventually, just did not expect it to be so soon. So of course that changed my BMI as well.
According to my height I am suppose to be weighing in at 124lbs. That is a number I have not seen since HS graduation 15 years ago. Funny thing is, like most teenage girls - I thought my size 6/7 body was fat. I am so wishing I would have never thought that. l
I need to find that person to help me stay on track. If I do - maybe this time next year I will be there =)