keep finding myself thinking - wow how did I wind up back in my fat lady clothes?
Three years ago I worked very hard to change my diet and to exercise every day for 30 minutes. I lost 40 pounds and, wore a size 12 again. Everyone called me skinny. I wasnt skinny, I still weighed 180 pounds. I gained back the 40 and woke up one day - fed up that I was fat again. I know Im a statistic. Woohoo!
I knew I was gaining weight but felt helpless to do anything about it. I was driving two hours a day to work and home, working 12 hour days on Monday, Tuesday - Thursday I was working almost a 9 hour day and then going to physical therapy for 3 hours, Fridays were not a work day for me - but I still had to do physical therapy for 3 hours. I became burned out and physically exhausted. I had to give up a job I loved. I tried to keep my healthy eating habits, but that turned into another health issue for me - high cholesterol because of poultry being my main food source.
Then I found SPARKPEOPLE. I learned how to balance my fats, proteins, and my carbs. It took me a while to find a balance - but I did it. I started to lose weight, but I didnt make that my goal when I joined. When I joined Spark my goal was to gain health, so I held my weight at a steady place. Not gaining, but not losing and being OK with that. Since I keep getting GOOD reports from the doctor on my different health issues; I have been able to let go of a few doctors.
I have changed my goal this year to focus on losing 50 pounds. I have lost 14 - I have 36 to go. It seems witin my grasp... I just have to keep pushing.
You see - 11 years ago I was hit by a drunk driver.. this story I will share at another time. But I had to learn to walk again. I know what it is to push myself. I also know how to fight for it. I know it will take everything that I am to become what I want... lighter and healthier. There are days when the walking is very hard for me to do. But I thank God every day I can walk, even with the pain. I carry dead tissue and bone with my every step, but praise God - I can take a step. I have lived on pain meds - which is probably what caused my kidney failure - so now I deal with the pain without meds.
So finding my way on this journey to health has been challenging, but rewarding. I know my limits. But, I know my God is limitless. I can push myself and motivate others, be inspired by others and inspire others.
I leave things behind that hinder my health and embrace new things to try to gain my health.
Once you lose your health it is the hardest thing to get back.
My inspiration today: If you ignore your health it will go away.