Thursday, November 12, 2009
Hello fellow sparkers, today isa much better day than yesterday I guess going to the Babies Can't Wait playdate opened my eyes to some things I was choosing to ignore or didn't see. Anyway I am in the process of trying to locate other resources available to help both Brandon and myself. After writing my blog last night and praying and crying and staring at Brandon I have come to the realization that yes this road is going to be hard but I can not break. to quote a spark friend "I have had my woe is me moment" this is so true I needed this moment I had it and no it hasn't gone completely away but the feeling has slightly decreased. I want to thank everyone for their words and prayers because after coming back and reading everyones comments I truly feel blessed and I don't feel like I am alone. There is a reason for everything that has happened and maybe one day I will understand why and maybe I never will that is not for me to decide, but what is for me to decide is to get of my @$$ and move and stop feeding the stress monster.
I didn't jump into Chalean Extreme like I planned to last night but I did watch burn basics, band basics. I plan to get started this weekend with the program because I am exhausted from running after Brandon today and I have to get up and take Brandon in for an eye assessment under anesthesia. When I think back over everything this child has gone through in his lifetime I have no reason to give up.
So with all of that being said I am taking Renee (AlwaysChanging) up on her challenge to catch up with her on Chalean Extreme. I'm looking forward to jumping in and seeing just what this body can do and what transformation I can make. I will be posting my starting measurements and before pictures tomorrow.
Once again thanks for all the words of encouragement and the prayers. I love all of my
you all are like my extended family.