Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Last week was rough! This week is tough too, but at least my back pain is no more YAY!!! But i'm also getting back into the late night/early morning bed time routine which can make me too tired to run like today...yes yes i know it's an excuse. :( I did buy some vegetarian tryptophan pills to help get a more natural night's rest, and i bought a tape measurer to keep track of inches yay! Oh yeah...and the big news...I bought a SCALE!!!
It hasn't come yet, but I should be getting it this week. I haven't weighed myself in weeks, it's been tough trying to coordinate with my friend who has been weighing me, so it's just easier if I do it first thing in the morning. I just need help NOT BECOMING OBSESSED! I came across my college journal when I started to lose weight the first time and I was just scary obsessed with the numbers on the scale and with my shape and T&A I will never be what is considered "average" weight wise for my height of 5'9". It's just not meant to be. I have to accept that and this is the official test! eek!!! I'm scared to know the number on the scale...I need to not self sabotage once I learn of it. Wish me luck!!!
I also updated a new body photo...it's been over a month since I started SP and I'm not sure I see a huge change, but I do feel better...but I'm really struggling because I don't see a difference really. I am still tired all the time...I miss having energy. :(