Tuesday, November 10, 2009
I first and foremost want to aplogize to my spark friends from Binghamton and Ithaca. I should have been there Sunday and could not get myself out of the depression. It is no excuse. Just an explanation. I thought I could handle the anniversary alot better than I did. It through me through a big loop. I don't think I have really stopped crying for too long yet. This is the worst month for me. the anniversary of my son's death is the 21st and I hope that I can get through that better than this past weekend. The pain inside is so hard to describe. I appreciate everyone's great words and I do read them over and over. I tell myself that I can't change the past and need to work on the future but sometimes things get in the way. Please bear with me as I work on this.