i went to therapy with full intentions of telling him all the things i do that aren't good for me but that never happened. we ended up in a huge introspective talk about trust and how having did makes it much harder because different parts of me have different relationships and trust bonds with him. we talked about how i need to let myself open up and know i am in the safest place in the world. i do trust him with all of my being and am afraid when he hears my early life that he will be disgusted by me and chose not to see me anymore. when i am being rational i know that , that won't happen but still i fear i am not worthy of being saved. so here i am another week gone by and i just find myself disgusting and worthless.