I faced my fear last night. I mean really, I don't like to look at myself without being fully clothed so why would anyone else??? I did it. I took the "Before" photos. It took a bazillion tries to get shots that actually included most of me in them ... not the ceiling, wall, floor, toilet, etc. I must say it is very hard to take photos of yourself as you hide in the bathroom because you don't want anyone else to see you being ridiculous. Not to mention that I had to stand on a footstool while doing this so I could get more of me in the pics. So try standing on a plastic footstool while hiding in the bathroom and contortioning yourself so you can get a photo of yourself ... it's the stuff of comedy sketches. Of course it wasn't funny while I was trying to do it but I can see the humor in it afterwards. Oh God!!! Even my rolls have rolls. Thank God we live in a society that requires people to wear clothes. If I had to wear nothing more than I had on for those pics on a daily basis, I would never leave the house. It definitely made getting out of bed at 4:40 this morning to do an exercise video before I got ready for work a bit easier.

So here goes ... the point of no return ... I'm going to add them to my blog too. Please don't scream in horror or run from the computer. I need to do this. I have to admit in public that I have a problem. I need the support as I don't get much at home. Oh God do I have to push the "Post Blog Entry" button? Is this sealing my fate of being alone forever? Will this ever change? Can I do it this time? Can I finally take control and change my body for the better? Okay ... deep breath ... okay another deep breath ... I'm pushing the button ... now.