Okay so I have a new friend. I really like her and we've been spending a lot of time together. We have a lot of the same interests and really clicked right away. Here's my problem (and I feel really terrible about it), she's a bigger girl. She's a pastry chef. And when I'm with her, I have a hard time choosing healthy foods. I spent the day with her yesterday and I did GREAT at lunch. I had the salad bar. She had a cheesy yummy quesadilla. I managed. Then we walked around an outlet mall. We walked about half of it and then she drove around to the other side and we walked the other half. If I had been by myself or with any of my other friends, we'd have walked it all. Then we went to Outback with our husbands. She ordered cheese fries. I LOVE cheese fries. Cheese fries may be solely responsible for me reaching 209 pounds! I ate a few. Then I had steak, which I only ate half of as usual (and it was the smallest one I could order.) I had potato soup with it, which I don't feel good about at all. It was creamy and covered in cheese.

SO I'm afraid that I'm going to get big again by hanging out with this wonderful girl. I really don't know. I feel terrible for thinking it. I know I just need to get a handle on my willpower, but it's those stupid cheesy fries. They get me every time! That's why we just avoid them! *L* And I'm so afraid to insult her. Every time we've gone out with this couple, they (both of them are big) want to get ice cream or an appetizer or dessert. It's getting a little frustrating. OR she cooks for us which I cannot control. I had her to my house for dinner and made baked chicken and vegetables.

Please don't misunderstand. I know people are going to read this and think I'm insensitive. It's quite the opposite. I'm super sensitive with this because I really want to be friends with her. I just don't know how and not lose control.