Wednesday, November 04, 2009
About this time a couple years ago, I was looking at myself in the mirror and realizing, I was a very unhealthy person. Like so many others at the first of the year, I made the dedication to get healthy. However, unlike many people, I stuck to it and within 6 months, I lost 40 pounds! It was a huge accomplishment for someone with PCOS. Women with PCOS have a harder time losing weight, but I did it! Then, disaster in the form of life came into play and slower, 10 of those pounds came back. My life was falling apart again and even though I knew I could help myself out by being healthy, I had no motivation to do so.
So, like my previous blog states, I decided I needed an overall change to my life. I did something very hard. I left a full-time job to move back with my parents. And while I'm a little scared about the decision, I already feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I'm back with people who love me and support me. On top of that, this is where I lost a majority of my weight. I have people here who hold me accountable when I go for the kitchen at 10 at night or when I buy something that I know I shouldn't. On top of that, I've reclaimed a space in the basement for my workouts.
Today is my first day back. I was so excited to go downstairs and workout today! This is the first time in a long time that I wanted to run downstairs and sweat my butt off! And I feel so great right now. I did 20 minutes even though I wanted to do more. I knew coming back into this, I needed to build myself up slowly again.
On top of that, I went shopping and bought myself a new pair of workout shoes. I set a goal for myself that I would start running. I was scared to it in the city because of people watching, but back in the country, I feel I can do that. Besides, I used my weight as a hold back from doing it because I thought I couldn't. But, I've seen people on the Biggest Loser do it that weight far more than me, so I know I can. I hope it will also excellerate my weight loss at least for a while. I've always wanted to run as a workout and now I'm going to do it! So, I also bought a armband for my IPod so I can listen to that and run. I know that will be huge help. Music is a HUGE motivator for me. I can do more and with more energy when I good song is playing.
So, I'm back and so ready to take on those extra pounds. Once they are gone, you better believe I won't be stopping. This is a part of my new life and the big goals I have for myself within the next year!