Knowing my eating patterns, I could see this week erupting without any obstacles. When I stress out, I want to eat...yes, that is the diagnosis...stress = eat...= "relief"... but we all know that the "relief" is temporary, followed by more eating, followed by guilt, followed by more... you get the picture... And stress affects each of us differently!

Although l love that I am losing weight (not this week, I maintained). The problem with, nothing that fits, is stressful for me... it seems that friends have taken notice and are giving me articles of clothing that they wore when they were smaller or larger than they are now... I am grateful, no doubt. I have been making the best of it between the thrift shop and friends.

I am at that stage, you know, where you are too big to be small and too small to be ...er.. big ...does that even make sense? I am between a 14/16 and 18/20... do you realize that there is no size 16/18???? No size 17??? Do people magically jump from a size 18 to a size 16 and everything fits just right?

The clothing industry caters to the "queen" sized woman 18/20, the "Plus size" woman 20+ ( including the XL fiasco...more on that later... the petite woman, the petite queen woman, the teen or junior female, the "woman" section... regular sizes (to size 14/16) and the the "normal" size female section, you know, the one with a few 10/12s and then single digits ... I hate being a "tweener"!!!

The clothing industry does this sizing craziness XS, S, M, L, XL... you've seen it...did you notice there is a difference between an XL and a 1X? You would think that an XL would mean the same as a 1X after all, they both have a single X...but no.. that is not the case ... they are two distinct and different sizes!... 1X being wider through the bust and hips and XL being larger through the shoulder area (Who looks at shoulder size?????) It seems that the S,M,L era for the female sizes was an offshoot from the male sizing. No one took account of how women are built differently than men!

I am too small for the 1x and too big for the XL ... (in basic crew t-shirts) frustrating to no end... do I eat to get bigger, or starve to get smaller is the question that comes to mind! I feel like taking all the food in the house with me to a closet where I can have peace and quiet while I feed my stress demon and try to work out the solutions in my head!

Most of the stress comes from the fact that I have to dress for two functions (costumes for quartet and chorus are also in the stress mix) including a job interview and a wedding. Now that I have vented, I feel somewhat better..and I will work out the details..

I think I can still wear the top I wore for my Sept picture for the wedding, although it is not appropriate for a job interview. I am going to try to find an appropriate blouse that will serve well for for that. Sigh...now that I have a game plan, I can begin to arm myself for the battle! The dust may soon settle and I will be able to see a clearer path to the solutions at hand.

Thank you for reading along... I did get just a bit out of hand.... (sorry)

LTLY = Love To Love You