Tuesday, November 03, 2009
I realize that that does not sound accurate, but I heard Jillian Michaels from the Biggest Loser last week tell one of the contestants that you cannot fail unless you were trying to begin with. So therefore, without failure, there is no success! Not many people succeed the first time they try something. Maybe not fail miserably, but always bumps along the road and time to learn how to do what it is you are doing. Well, I have tried to lose weight for many years now. I had been pretty good at losing the same 20 lbs over and over again for the first 25 years of my life. 20 lbs isn't a ton to lose, so I was always pretty successful at that. I used to exercise and eat well for a few months, have my figure back and be good to go, then I would loosen the reigns and let myself go and gain it back over about a year or so and then just re-lose it again in a few months time. Very yo-yo, always very unhappy with myself every time I gained. Then at about 25 years old, I just don't know what happened, I gained my 20 and then another 2o and then another....well, I guess you get the picture. So here I am now 100 lbs or so overweight.
So, back on subject, I guess the point I am trying to make, is that although I have been on back and forths and sometimes just backs, I keep coming back, to try and lose. So even though I have been with Spark for five or six years now and had many failures and left the site for long periods of time, I still keep coming back, which means that I am still trying, I couldn't keep failing if I weren't trying. I often find myself calling myself a failure when it comes to weight loss and Jillian pointed out the good in that to me, the good is I couldn't keep being a failure if I didn't keep trying and one of these times, I am going to get it right and I am going to succeed. I don't know when, I'd like to think this time, but if I fail again, I know that I will try again!
I have also decided that I am going to try to stick with Spark to help me through my journey as opposed to Weight Watchers. I have gone back and forth for years between the two, and for this attempt anyway, Spark just feels like it is the right place for me to be. Wish me luck!