Wednesday, October 21, 2009
I think my body image was directly affected by my younger years. I competed in pageants when I was younger, so I was constantly striving for a very thin body. During "pageant training" mode I would be very strict on my diet and work outs and certain foods were strictly forbidden! To me at the time it was always worth it. The pay off was getting compliments from my coaches and feeling good on stage. The problem was I would work so hard and be so strict that when a pageant was over I'd eat everything in site, frankly just because I could! No pageant equaled no diet.
Then about 4 months before the next pageant I would get into "pageant diet mode" again. I continued this habit for, lets see....5 years. This was during my teen to early adult years, so I developed a very unbalanced way of eating. I was an all or nothing type of dieter and still am:( I was always "on" or "off" a diet, never just eating balanced and healthy all the time. For each pageant I would drop 15 pounds and then usually gain most of it back in the off-season. Why would I do that to myself? Imagine if I had just eaten healthy all the time, then "pageant training" would have been so easy and not such hard work.
Because of those all or nothing diet episodes, I have a very hard time maintaining a balance in my diet and having a healthy outlook on food. I'm trying to change that, but it's so hard for me. My number one goal through joining SP is to develop a healthy relationship with food. I hope I can accomplish this.