It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like ONEderland...!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
I have to confess to having a little "help" via the cleansing one has to do before having a colonoscopy, but I am still THRILLED nonetheless to having dropped TEN POUNDS this week!
I dropped from 226 to 220 after the first attempt at a colonoscopy. Then bounced up to 224 last week...and now down to 214! Woo hoo! Now I am already mentally preparing myself for some possible rebound as I did after my last colonoscopy attempt...but nonetheless the zig-zag is heading downward! ONEderland here I come!
Other than the colonoscopy, the other changes I've made is for 1-2 days a week I allow myself only non-starchy veggies for the day, which I figure does some shaking up and confusion to my body and promotes more weight loss. I've continued to keep the nuts out of my food choices. An "addition" I've made to my food has been apples. After reading about the higher fiber content that fruit has than veggies and also realizing that NOT including fruit in the interests of maintaining a lower carb approach was something I had planned to change at some point anyhow: I thought why not add an apple here & there? We've been out apple picking lately too which has added to its appeal. Yum, nothing like biting into a crisp, juicy, sweet-sour Cortland!
Beyond this, however, I have to confess to having a weird sort of doldrums this past week. There was a day of unintended, unwanted missed cardio...just couldn't pull myself up onto the old 'mill. I ALWAYS beat myself up for this...don't know WHY it can be such a struggle sometimes! I know I've been missing other types of workout outlets lately, 'millwork has been getting boring...
So along those lines, I've decided tomorrow, since I'm not working late and the weather is bouncing back to the upper 60's AND since the road repairs are largely completed (still some striping and minor stuff going on, but the shoulders are done) I will ride my bike back and forth to work. This is something I want to do on a more regular basis once we're back to warmer weather in the spring...but have to be vigilant for those occasional "do-able" days left here in the fall also! Riding my bike often gives me a great boost and I'm SO looking forward to THAT!
I've been previewing Chris Downie's book "The Spark" and I'll tell you, there are some challenging ideas in this book...it really makes you stop, take note and think about what direction you want your life to take...! It's like, wow...I've done so much already, how can I TOP this...?!?! Yet on the other hand I know I've been feeling a bit stagnant, needing a more specific goal to sink my teeth into. Yes, I know I've had ONEderland on my brain...but I'm beginning to question that goal...felt like I was floundering during my zig-zags...still wanting to reach that goal, but already challenging myself: How is life going to be any different when a new number shows up on the scale...?
So how WOULD I like life to be different...? Working through "The Spark" has begun to give me some ideas, some glimmers...but as to pulling this all together and having a clear VISION of what I want to see blooming in my life? Specific, concrete changes? Still struggling with that. I have the same difficulty in making changes in my home...we're looking at laminate flooring. I can see so many styles that appeal. But to store in my head a given laminate color, style and then match that with a specific color wall and decide okay, what kind of furniture would go with that...? Ugh! No can do! I'm having the same struggle taking my values, beliefs...mixing it with a "vision" of my ideal future and conjuring specific Fast Break Goals that will put one foot ahead of the other and take me toward that vision.
I'm looking forward to meeting with other members of SparkPeople locally as one of our new members has recently moved and invited us to her place on Saturday. We came up with the idea as she tongue-in-cheek suggested in her blog that fellow members of SparkPeople come over to help her to move her belongings. I thought it sounded like a wonderful idea and took her up on it! Not sure that there's much moving to do still, but meeting everyone will be super!
I've been SO inspired by ALL of your wonderful blogging lately everyone... Keep up the terrific sharing and support that continues to add to the strength of our SparkFamily ties!
Member Comments About This Blog Post
Figs are bearing madly here. I've been eating figs, and clementines, and apples, oh, yes apples.
Ahhh- fresh fruit.
2680 days ago
I am also reading the book and finding it to be quite inspiring. It really does get you thinking about setting and achieving other goals and finding yourself. Keep up the great work. Chris
2680 days ago
Hey Don -- great personal insight! Congrats on the weight loss too! Just -- no more colonoscopies to help you out :) I like apples now too. Just a nice, crisp apple. Before I would only eat them in a pie or a crisp...
2680 days ago
Ohhhhh.... Well, that makes more sense.... I was a little worried about you.... Well, congratulations and I hope all or most of it stays off.
Have you tried cycling in the winter? My husband does. He just bundles up and wears cycling booties, etc.
Have fun with your mini-reunion on the weekend.
2680 days ago
Keep plugging away. Maybe life will be different at "one-der-land," not because of the actual number on the scale but because of the process you went through to get there.
With my own journey, not only am I feeling better about myself because I'm a more socially acceptable size and more vigorous in general, but the process itself has made me more assertive. I'm more empowered. I tell my boss (and HIS boss) what I think, when they ask. Because life is short and I'm done pretending everything is beautiful.
And I've also gotten to know MYSELF better. I have a better idea of when I can trust myself to make good decisions and when I need to stack the deck or coerce myself to do what needs to be done.
There are still surprises, but there are fewer of them and I'm more accepting of myself when they do happen. Instead of kicking myself so often I try to examine how and why and learn from it. I think I'd actually be pretty boring to live inside of, if I were 100% predictable, anyway, so it definitely keeps me entertained. LOL
I don't want to develop a razor-sharp vision of my "ideal" life. Not right now, anyway. I'll settle for getting the last 35 lbs off (or 25% body fat whichever comes first), and working toward doing more of the things I like (ww kayaking, flat water kayaking, etc.)
I think that's enough goals for me to handle at the moment. Too many and I'll get overwhelmed. I don't make a lot of forward progress with my head up, looking around. I make my best progress when I keep my nose to the grindstone, and my focus on the immediate hour, day, and week.
Yes, it's good to make sure that the "forward" progress is in a direction that you actually WANT, but I'm pretty confident mine is, so I'm going to put my head down and keep pushing, for now. LOL.
I also don't think it's important to me to "top" what I've already accomplished - I lean toward trying to be an overachiever, and it's not always been healthy. Sometimes it's important for me to just *be,* rather than to *do.*
Looking forward to seeing you and Kathy at Linda's on Saturday!
2681 days ago
Comment edited on: 10/21/2009 5:06:21 PM
on your cheek :) derland, here Don comes!
2681 days ago
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