Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I am still standing in the gap, praying and fasting for Mom. Doctor told us yesterday she has just days-not weeks. Today I had the arduous task of cleaning out her apartment, terminating her lease and canceling her phone service. We moved all her belongings back to the house and will sort them later, putting some things on craiglist, some to Goodwill, etc.
I have Mommie phonebook and I face the difficulty task of calling her lifelong friends and telling them of her poor declining health. The doctor stated that visitors at this point may cause my Mom distress and despair seeing folks that she hasn't seen in ages. My sisters and I have started asking people not flock down to her hospital room, in fact the doctor told us to get out, have dinner together, take a walk or go to the mall. I have to agree, I do not want Mommie to feel any negative energy nor do I want her to witness when I have a stress fit trying to make sense of it all.
This isn't fair and I know life isn't fair and who am I to complain. I don't Mommie to die and go to heaven, but who am I to selfishly keep her here in the natural, in pain, with tubes running out of her body. I told Mommie she is the head and not the tail and she is above and not not beneath and the greater one lives inside of her.
To God be the Glory