Thursday, October 15, 2009
Well I think it's time to put some thoughts down here...been putting this off hoping for more inspiration, more SPARK...but for whatever reason this hasn't happened.
Trying to put my finger on the "blahs" which have been hanging on lately. Haven't been feeling rested, haven't been feeling like working out (although I have, but without any real oomph) and while visiting relatives in MI picked up 4# due to over-indulging in relatively healthy food, just too much. Back in the saddle since returning on Monday. Those long 12 hour car trips really take so much out of a person! I just don't understand why sitting in a car for 12 hours should be so tiring! It's not like our bodies are being taxed in any significant way...
Medically I've been gearing up for attempt #2 at a colonoscopy...am chugging away a gallon of Nulytely after a day of clear liquids, including Miralax, Dulcolax and a quart of prune juice. Yesterday I ate only non-starchy veggies and 3 apples. I'm doing all that I can to make this routine colonoscopy screening happen successfully. Silly of me to do this, but I chose to schedule the colonoscopy for tomorrow...my 53rd birthday! Woo...hoo...? I put it off so I could get out to MI, but then wanted to do it ASAP.
Another nagging thing has been inner ear pressure on my right ear which is NOT an infection, per my primary care doc...however it has dampened my hearing which has had an odd psychological effect of creating a sort of buffer between me and the world...feeling more cut off from people and activity, missing small sounds which whiz by unnoticed... Next week I finally catch up with the ENT to find out what the heck is going on.
I'm just not used to all these medical hiccups and am pretty impatient and irritable over such things...which I realize are so minor compared to the serious health woes of others!
I DO have a Spark Rally to look forward to on Sunday as our local Binghamton Area Losers are going to join our local CHOW Hunger Walk in raising money for the needy. While I'm certainly looking forward to this, it hasn't yet given me the kind of boost anticipating these kind of gatherings usually do.
So it's like my Spark is there, but just sorta dampened lately...and I don't like it!
Will keep on keeping on...doing the work of striking stone on stone until I can get SPARKING the way I WANT to!