Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I have been thinking about this for quite some time now. Thinking that I own this part of myself. I have always thought of myself as personally responsible. As I look back I realize I too often and too easily, place blame upon other people's actions or environment. Having this crutch, allows me to not stand up and take responsibility.
The thought of others having control over my destiny, terrifies me. This thought has caused me a great deal of grief. It makes me want to stand up and take back this control. I pause to take a look at how I have set up my mental models to allow this.
Looking back I realize that my religious upbringing has allowed me to not take responsibility. By "asking God" for guidance and protection we have allowed ourselves to not stand up and take responsibility. We allow ourselves to blame outside forces for our own failures. We shrink away from taking the responsibility and stepping up to make the changes required to eliminate some of our continual failures.
For me this stops now. I will not allow others to be in control of my destiny.