Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Ok....truth time! I am afraid of that little red button on the right that says "BLOG"!!!
When I started on spark people over a year ago I was amazed and overwhelmed. I knew that this was going to be an exciting journey. I got right into the tracking nutrition and tracking exercise. I even formed a group of friends that I visit with every morning who have been there with their amazing support and motivation. But.....the one thing I haven't quite gotten into is ....THE BLOG!!
Maybe it's because I'm one of the "older" members, and the idea of writing down my feelings every day for all the world to see, seems sort of scary. Maybe it's the old nightmares from HS English when we HAD to write a paragraph every day or keep a journal. What ever, it seemed like if I didn't feel I had some momentous heart filled wisdom to bring out...what was there to write about?
After spending a year reading and enjoying everyone elses blogs, I finally "get it". The dreaded BLOG is not for everyone else - it's for ME! It's a place I can write about what I'm thinking or feeling and how is that affecting my eating or my exercising. If I had an "a..ha!" moment, or found a wonderful quote that I love..I can write it down and have easy access to it. No one is going to correct my spelling or argue with me, or grade me. I can write one sentence or hundreds.
I wish now that I would have done a better job of recording my feelings through the last year of the journey. I've grown so much, gained so much more confidence in myself, gotten healthier, gotten back into daily exercise, and in the process lost almost 50 lbs.
I am pledging to myself to be a better blogger...to take that one last step in opening up to myself and to others.
If anyone should be reading this...don't be afraid of the dreaded "blog"....it might just be that one place where you can admit to yourself that you're proud of yourself and you love yourself. We all take the time to tell others those wonderful words, but how often do we tell ourselves..."Hey! I did good!" I am in control of my life and I LOVE IT!