Saturday, October 10, 2009
Over the last month I have seen myself fall back into some bad night-time eating binges. In september I had a terrible drive through fog, how did I cope? I was so shook up I ate myself to sleep. I had a medical test go bad, I ate at night again to soothe myself. I had a bad customer service experience and was treated ruder than ever before by a 20 something manager, who didn't have a clue how to respect people. Again, I took it out on myself and ate that night. My husband was grumpy and said some unkind words, what did I do, yep I ate again, to soothe myself, to ease the pain, who knows, I just know it's bad, and I need to stop. As a spark person I have conquered this at times, but it still is a bad coping mechanism I dangerously use to get through my stress. I had worked hard on this, but I see I need to put more effort at it. It is still a huge problem for me. For anyone with a so called addiction, smoking, alcohol, night-time binge eating, you must persevere, never give up. You may fall, but you have to pick yourself up. I am picking myself up and working harder on steering clear of food when my world turns upside down.