Friday, October 09, 2009
So today I had a doctors appt with my reproduction specialist ... Since I've gained weight I've kept the number a secret for so long... Its like when you don't have weight issues and then all of a sudden you do there is this shame that I can't describe..... So when I weighed in today ...193 and I could have curled up and died right there. ...I've been depressed because my clothes do not fit the same...every morning is a struggle and I'm not used to that because I love clothes... This is me being as real as possible in this blog.... I'm tired of being tired so if that 193 was not a wake call I don't know what its gonna take for me to get up and git.....
I really want to put an effort in ... and I have been but there needs to be more sacrafice and commitment to myself.... I hope whoever reads this blog can identify and gain strength in knowing that this website is a network of support..... This is my journey... this is my one and only LIFE !!!
Love , support and peace my ppl
P.S. I feel like I'm fighting for my life !