Saturday, October 03, 2009
Someone told me this today-Show me someone who runs and I will show you someone who likes pain. This person said this to me knowing that I run. I didn't challenge her because I just didn't want to go there but I have to say I am irked.
Okay when I didn't run I probably thought the same thing. Who is crazy enough to run when it is cold,dark,hot,raining,humid? Well I guess I am because I have run in all those situations. But do I like pain? No I really don't think so.
I had someone ask me once why I did run since at that time I ran slower than I walked. She wasn't being a jerk she honestly wanted to know what kept me running. And to be honest I didn't have an answer for her. But I think I have one now.
I am a stubborn cuss. I am descended from a long line of incredibly onery stubborn people. I put off trying to run for a long long time. I had all the glib answers for why I didn't run: I like my knees,I don't sweat in public,I only run for ice cream. But when I hit a plateau a fellow Sparker urged me to try running. To give it an honest try. (stand up and take a bow AspenJules). So I did try it and I hated it. Someone else on Sparkers pointed me towards the couch25k program and I started that. I hated it. I bought a sports bra(reread the blog about that. still makes me giggle)tried running again. I hated it.
I told Aspenjules I just wasn't able to do it. And she gave me a piece of advice that I will always remember. If you can't run for a minute than run for less. Well duh seems common sense but I totally had a light bulb moment. No one says you have to start at one minute intervals there are no running police(well actually I have run in to a couple but that is for a later blog)run what you can run. So that is what I did. It took me a month to be able to run where the couch25k started. Then I took weeks before I would advanced to the next level. Then I got stuck and couldn't seem to run for longer times. Then another rookie runner forum member gave me another piece of light bulb advice-slow down. I was like what? I am all ready going slow but everyone said go slower. So I did and I found I could run for 25 minutes.
Then they told me to run outside and I was not keen on the idea. But everyone said get outside you will like running better. At first I thought they were trying to kill me. Running outside is way harder than the treadmill. But finally after a few times I got to liking it. Now I don't want to run inside anymore. Which will make winter running very interesting since we tend to get snow here.
What my stubborness has to do with all of this was I just wasn't going to let this challenge get the best of me. I wasn't going to say the oh heck and give up. Sparkers said it could be done and I was going to prove to at least myself that it could be. And d--- if I didn't. I admit there are days when the idea of running is not at all interesting. There are other days where I am itching to get out and get going. Now when I am driving and see a fellow jogger I don't think what a moron. I think wow they run fast or they don't have very good form with their arms. I don't think well there is someone trying to get high on endorphins or is in to hurting.
I run because I can. Because someone(actually several someones)took the time and effort to teach me how to run. Because people believed I could do it. Because now I believe it too. I may never be a marathoner or win a race but every time I lace up my shoes and go for a run I have won. I have beaten that internal demon that most of us wrestle with that tells us we can't. That tries to convince us of the futility of it all so just stay home and eat. So do I run because I like pain? No!!!!! I RUN BECAUSE I AM A RUNNER!!!!!!!!!