Friday, October 02, 2009
It's Friday morning and I've been awake since 4. I will confess that I didn't actually get out of bed until 4:53, but I really, really, really wanted to sleep in - at least until 6. It didn't happen though, and I am kind of glad about that.
I sent an email to a dear friend (and fellow sparker!) this morning talking about how our efforts were going, She's getting back on track and I'm... looking for the track. I mentioned that while weight loss and ultimate overall health is the ultimate goal, that I needed to clean up the chaos that is going on externally life before I can tackle the chaos that is going on internally.
The more I think about what I said, the more I think it makes sense, but I also wonder if there isn't a little... procrastination in that too.
So I was wondering how to balance (that's going to be a big word for me, not to mention challenge) all the chaos and not really let one side be more dominant than the other and I realise that it's compromise that will have to happen.
I fully intend on purging the unneeded, unnecessary, unwanted items from my life and making my living space something of comfort and renewal. A retreat of sorts. But to not let the other things slide, even if I *choose* to make unhealthy choices food wise, I will be aware of how much it is I eat and control the portions. Super-size? No thanks!
I will make the little changes that will, in the long run, save me money while getting me to walk just that little bit more than I am currently.
For me, this is not simply a journey of losing weight. This is a journey of self discovery, of empowerment, of becoming unencumbered, of getting real and getting on track. It's getting health, wealth and self healthy.
It's going to be a long journey - but one that has been avoided too long.
I'm scared. But kinda excited too!