This morning, I had officially lost 7.2 lbs since my last motivational speech in late August. I was hovering around the 1300-1400 calorie mark and working out 4 days a week on the elliptical whilst discovering that I had developed severe allergies to some unknown thing. Now that I can breath through my nose again, hear and see properly, I would think that losing weight at some slow but not insignificant pace would make me feel wonderful. Instead, I actually feel more fat.

I have 2 more weeks to reach the 10-lbs goal line I created for myself using a practical sense of what I could possibly lose. I have no doubt I will reach it. I am certain tomorrow the scale will say I've lost another .3 -.4 lbs. I've worked hard.

Freakishly, I walked through the grocery store today and noticed ice cream on sale (my fatal weakness). I simply was not interested in it at all. Maybe I've trained myself out of it - or maybe my muscles are cringing at the notion of how much harder they will have to work if I buy the ice cream (which would easily be gone in 4 or5 days). I read an article a couple weeks ago on MSNBC that said that certain chemicals in the fat of many dairy products, especially ice cream, make you lose control of your ability to know that you're full. Apparently, this affect lasted for up to 3 days after you consumed the ice cream and applies to all foods you eat during that time. I agree with this study in my own behavior for sure. IT was a relief to not crave and desire ice cream - but I almost felt like I had lost part of myself.

Perhaps I feel fatter right now because I'm still wearing the clothes I had bought for a me who was nearly 30 lbs heavier. My pants are all baggy and not at all flattering. I promised myself that after I reach my next goal point (another 10 lbs by mid-December) I would treat myself to some new clothes. Money is tight and I will just have to deal with baggy pants until then. I just wish I could get a monetary incentive or bonus for losing weight to help with paying for smaller clothes. There should totally be a weight-loss scholarship by the health insurance company.