Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Why can't I get this eating and exercising to live a healthy lifestyle thing back under control. I lost 50 pounds but now it is coming back on. Why can't I stay motivated? I start the morning right but by dinner I've used way too many ( or even all) of my calories. Why can't I stay in my range? Every night I go to bed disgusted with myself and vowing that tomorrow I will get back on track. Why can't I stay motivated all day? Even before I take those unhealthy bites, I know I shouldn't. Why can't I listen to my own body and inner voice. Maybe the question shouldn't be why can't I but rather why won't I ? Why won't I put my health above the temporary pleasure of eating? Why won't I do what I now I need to do? I don't know the answers to these questions but I can't give up. I need to keep trying and hope that my won'ts will turn into cans and then into dids.