I know I didn't do everything I could/should have this week, but I am DONE beating myself up about it. It is what it is! It sounds so trite to say that, so cliche, but I need to start hearing myself and others when it's said!!

Where does this newfound perspective come from? I am feeling really good right now!!! I was SOOO caught up in BL tonight that I REALLY pushed my workout and I beat my own personal best by more than a minute!! I have been working on this running stuff for weeks now and I finally beat my 45 minute goal (try 5K in 43:38 to be exact!!)

When I first typed this sentence, it included the words: (at least on my treadmill) and "although I'm not where I ultimately want to be..." I DON'T NEED TO MINIMIZE THIS ACCOMPLISHMENT! I kicked butt! I don't care if it's not the 28 minutes I have seen posted all over kingdom come! I met AND surpassed MY first goal! This is my race, against me, and I did it!

We would all be so much happier if we could really own our victories! For me, myself and I, this is AWESOME!!! I feel like yelling "I DID IT!" from my front yard at the street, but I am afraid I might wake the neighbors, so I will shout it across Sparkland that I am VERY proud of me.

I think it's just what I needed to get out of my slump! I never did register for that stupid race on November 7th YET. I took that stupid registration phone number off the fridge and put in my bag so I can call from work first thing tomorrow morning. I'm gonna do it. I don't have to run the whole thing for it to "count". I don't have to do it in less than 1/2 hour for it to "count". I don't have to place, I don't have to do it perfect, I don't have to beat ANYBODY! I just have to do it.

And guess what? I think I can!