Monday, September 28, 2009
I feel like I'm holding up my own personal world on my very sore shoulders. I now don't have a job--the state CCD turned down my application. I'm not even sure of why totally yet and I don't know if they send a written explanation either. My unemployment has run out---there is an extension that starts Oct 4th--small light in this tunnel. I have issues with my roof that have felt like a yo-yo going up and down. I am waiting on two bids I had DONE TO SEE IF I HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO FIX IT. THE GOOD NEWS THERE IS THAT IT IS NOT AS COMPLICATED A PROCESS AS THE FIRST CONTRACTOR SAID--YEAH??!! (lovely little crooked finger hit the caps lock!!!) My significant other is gambling again, and acting like a jacka**.
And my son went to Rehab yesterday. Now that doesn't seem so bad as I have had several days to get used to it. He had been hiding his problems very well this time (he's an alcoholic). Once i processed the information, I decided that it was a good thing--he realized his problem this time, he decided to do something about it. and he even said, let's hope this is the last time. Unfortunately when he first called me my mother's heart went into gear and I cried for days. Both hurting for him and feeling guilty that he is the way he is. I'm better now, but still feeling crushed under a heavy heavy load.