Thursday, September 24, 2009
Have I finally found a life style I will stick to forever? I truly believe I have! I can not believe how easy this program is. It is thursday of week 2. According to folks on the biggest loser week two is usually a hard week because your body is now getting used to the change. Some folks gain weight or do not lose on week 2. I have no fear of that with this program. I am definately a Food Lovers Fat Loss System Fan! I need to start working exercise into our routine. I need to get more water in. I have not perfected all this but I am still losing weight and feeling better. I am no longer afraid to eat! I look foward to eating. I know there is nothing I can not have if I want it bad enough. If I crave a brownie the program has a recipe for them. Sure it is modified to make it a bit healthier but it is still a brownie. I feel so freed by this program. So many times I have started a program and been confused or starving or craving all the foods they told me I could not have. I do not do well when you tell me I can not have something. I then will only think about that which you said I can not have. Growing up I was defined by what I could not have. This program does not box me in.
I went to the doctor on Tuesday and he was very pleased with my blood sugar. Like a typical doctor he said how many calories are you eating I said it depends on the day around 1400 to 1800. He was like how about making it around 1600. I said I do not want to be defined by a number right now I just started this program it is working lets not fix something that is not broken! This is not my first time to the weight loss rodeo. I know myself very well. You start adding restrictions to me and I start down the trail of denial and regrets. Before you know it I get amnesia and do not recall trying a new eating program because of the cravings or limitations I end up giving into them. I know I will reach a point where my weight will hold tight and not budge and I will have to cut down the calories some more. I am hoping by that point I will already be wanting less because my stomach will be shrinking since I am no longer eating huge meals but smaller meals through out the day.
I set a year long goal to reach 220 pounds. I have not weighed that for over 20 years. I honestly believe it is possible and more! I still have clothes in bins from when I was that weight. Honestly I never thought I would ever get back into them. I would dream of one day being a size 20 or 22 again. One thing I have always had is the dream of what I wanted but with all those other programs out there I got bored and lost the drive. Many times I would do well and then get tired of the same old food. I need to be able to treat myself now and then. The problem with past diets is that I felt so deprived that once I treated myself I didnt want to go back on the diet. I am so happy that Food Lovesr is not a diet. It does not feel like one it is a way of life! All I can say is for me it is the solution to a life long dream that I know will finally be a reality.