I guess I have to start somewhere.....
Thursday, September 24, 2009
I'm falling off my wagon, so I thought perhaps writing everything out would help keep me motivated. Maybe, by some grace of God, feeling that I have to 'answer' to this little bloggity blog will help get me up off my ass. ;)
I didn't workout at ALL yesterday. The day before I put a little effort into a 25 min. basic tae bo video. I understand that I don't have to push myself 7 days a week. BUT, I was supposed to workout yesterday. I was SUPPOSED to strength train on Monday as well.
Not only did I not workout on those days, I went to the limit on my calories.
Speaking of calories, I think I may need to re-evaluate that. It seems that since I have been eating more, I have also been losing more.
I'm down 10 lbs (give or take a few, it changes) from Aug. 12th. (6 weeks) It took me nearly 4 weeks just to lose the first 5. I was staying at about 1250-1300 cal. per day and busting my rump working out. Now I am leaning more towards 1450-1550 a day and it seems to be coming off faster.
Of course the way my weight has been going, I will probably gain back a few again. I always gain it back before I 'officially' lose it. hmmm.... maybe I shouldn't weigh myself compulsively everyday. ;-)
Anyway, I have seen great progress and I just want that to continue. I still can't fit into the pants I wore before my daughter was born (22 friggin' months ago) but I do think my body looks better now than it did then.
I was thin/fat. Ya know, the thin flabby person. The scale said 114, I looked more like 130. Now, I am at 120 and look much more firm/prettier shape even though I can't fit into those pants yet.
I may not ever, I suppose. Maybe my hips are just permanently wider. (*clap, clap, clap* Just what I ALWAYS wanted!! NOT!!!! I was already pear shaped. I think I just jumped to bowling pin status.)
It's funny though, how my body image has changed. I'm short, thick legs, small chest. I look back to my body at 18 (the body I HATED) and would LOVE to look like that. I had a great body. But I wanted long skinny legs, big noonies and smaller ankles. ( who doesn't, right;) )
The only thing I think will bother me once I get in shape is that the stretch marks for sure ruin the chance of ever looking cute in a bikini again.
But I think I will for the first time, be at peace with my body. Stretch marks (even the ones on the back of my calves) and all.
I would still like to have smaller ankles, but now I see it as.....
at least I have them. At least they don't hurt me.
My husband was in a motorcycle accident years ago. His ankle hurts him (along with other parts) EVERYDAY. Every time he works out, gets out of bed etc, he is reminded of why I never wanted him to get a motorcycle in the first place;)
There are troops who come back without ankles legs. There are children born with deformities everyday. There are people with crippling arthritis in their ankles.
I am fortunate enough to have very functional ankles :) So, now at the ripe old age of 29 (LOL) I can fir the first time love my cankles:)
Alright enough rambling.
Today I have done the 10 min. jump rope workout here on SP using 2lb weights instead of a jump rope. I plan on doing my 2 mile walk (if it EVER stops raining) and either the biggest loser cardio max / level one or some rump kickin' tae bo.
We'll see how it goes;)