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Thursday, September 24, 2009

I'm falling off my wagon, so I thought perhaps writing everything out would help keep me motivated. Maybe, by some grace of God, feeling that I have to 'answer' to this little bloggity blog will help get me up off my ass. ;)

I didn't workout at ALL yesterday. The day before I put a little effort into a 25 min. basic tae bo video. I understand that I don't have to push myself 7 days a week. BUT, I was supposed to workout yesterday. I was SUPPOSED to strength train on Monday as well.
Not only did I not workout on those days, I went to the limit on my calories.
Speaking of calories, I think I may need to re-evaluate that. It seems that since I have been eating more, I have also been losing more.
I'm down 10 lbs (give or take a few, it changes) from Aug. 12th. (6 weeks) It took me nearly 4 weeks just to lose the first 5. I was staying at about 1250-1300 cal. per day and busting my rump working out. Now I am leaning more towards 1450-1550 a day and it seems to be coming off faster.
Of course the way my weight has been going, I will probably gain back a few again. I always gain it back before I 'officially' lose it. hmmm.... maybe I shouldn't weigh myself compulsively everyday. ;-)
Anyway, I have seen great progress and I just want that to continue. I still can't fit into the pants I wore before my daughter was born (22 friggin' months ago) but I do think my body looks better now than it did then.
I was thin/fat. Ya know, the thin flabby person. The scale said 114, I looked more like 130. Now, I am at 120 and look much more firm/prettier shape even though I can't fit into those pants yet.
I may not ever, I suppose. Maybe my hips are just permanently wider. (*clap, clap, clap* Just what I ALWAYS wanted!! NOT!!!! I was already pear shaped. I think I just jumped to bowling pin status.)
It's funny though, how my body image has changed. I'm short, thick legs, small chest. I look back to my body at 18 (the body I HATED) and would LOVE to look like that. I had a great body. But I wanted long skinny legs, big noonies and smaller ankles. ( who doesn't, right;) )
The only thing I think will bother me once I get in shape is that the stretch marks for sure ruin the chance of ever looking cute in a bikini again.
But I think I will for the first time, be at peace with my body. Stretch marks (even the ones on the back of my calves) and all.
I would still like to have smaller ankles, but now I see it as.....
at least I have them. At least they don't hurt me.
My husband was in a motorcycle accident years ago. His ankle hurts him (along with other parts) EVERYDAY. Every time he works out, gets out of bed etc, he is reminded of why I never wanted him to get a motorcycle in the first place;)
There are troops who come back without ankles legs. There are children born with deformities everyday. There are people with crippling arthritis in their ankles.
I am fortunate enough to have very functional ankles :) So, now at the ripe old age of 29 (LOL) I can fir the first time love my cankles:)

Alright enough rambling.
Today I have done the 10 min. jump rope workout here on SP using 2lb weights instead of a jump rope. I plan on doing my 2 mile walk (if it EVER stops raining) and either the biggest loser cardio max / level one or some rump kickin' tae bo.
We'll see how it goes;)
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    If I've learned one thing watching my mom succeed at losing more than 100 lbs and then turn right around and gain it all back (and more), it's that every setback is temporary. Every day is Day 1. There is no yesterday... there is only today.

    I enjoyed reading your post... you've got a great looking family and a blessed life. Many would kill to be in your shoes... cankles and all :P :P

    Go kick that 2 mile walk in the rear... in the rain if you have to.
    2906 days ago
    woops, dupe post sorry :)
    2906 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/11/2010 4:38:27 PM
  • MHINTZ0929
    Keep on keeping on. It's all about the journey, not the destination.
    3074 days ago
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