Saturday, September 19, 2009
I was doing pretty good for awhile there but once again I fell off the diet wagon. So now here I sit wondering what happened. How did I get sidetracked with my plan? I hate being like this, I don't like myself and that makes be very bitchy. I wanted it so bad but once again I failed. Maybe I am just suppose to be fat and unhealthy for whatever years or days I have left. The sad part is I know I can do it I've done it before but for some reason I've lost the motivation or whatever and I just can't seem to stick with it, or anything else for that matter. I hate that I can't do things because i'm to fat. It's almost embarrassing if my shoe comes untied at work because I can't bend over to tie it, so I just wait till everyone is out of the office and stand up and put my foot in a chair so i can tie it. Thee are so many things that my weight keeps me from doing and I know it, but I just keep on eating all the wrong things. Maybe I should weigh myself and try again, not sure why i'll just meet with failure again. I'll blog if I get started again.