Wednesday, September 16, 2009
This week is my six month anniversary in spark .I am an emotional overeater and since been in spark I had forgotten all about it .I had lost the need or the wish to overeat .Definetly I was in my honeymoon in spark .Probably all the excercise, kept me from the wish to binge at midnight or any other time,and even refrain me most of the time from the surge for sugar. Although I don't avoid it 100% about once a month I eat something like a frozen fruit bar.You might be wondering where I am leading too.Yesterday night I went into my first ever binge since 2009 and since spark.There was no particular difficult reason .I just brought the enemy into the house(not me my son).
I thought it was no problemn and decided to eat it next day.I was wrong .It got me hungry and I started eating nothing would feel me until I ate the d.. cuban sandwitch at about two am after I even had closed my food tracking a long time ago.Luckly the mayoneise made me harm and couldn't hardly eat anything but soups today.That was not the point for me.I most always remember to keep the watch.Probably if I would have started quick firing or doing any other exercise it would have been a different story.
Tonight just in case although I don't anymore have anything at home that will spark me I exercised late at night.Was not sure if I should share it or not and decided it might help someone else.Luckly my feet are better tonight and could walk on the threadmill .So I AM GOING BACK to basics and reviewing what I have been doing since beggining spark.I have to go back and read the articles they use to help me a lot and homecoking which I don't like too much.After the walk felt quite energized again and it help me decide to post.
This will be the beggining of my daily consciuosly nuturing my healthy food and exercises habits .Don't misunderstand me I did it before.,but thought that the battle had finish and that everything was going to be happily everafter and it would not if I don't consciusly make it part of my daily battle with my other wolf the same way I battle many othercharacter defects and nuture the ones I want.I had many other choises to make if I would have stop to think .First I new better than think that the urge would never come back I would need to be in the watchout daily and beware of nuturing the habits I want to win.
So it has been good that it happened in my anniversary as it would be easier to recall as a reminder to be alert.You never graduate this is a continuos process in which we grow but don't graduate.That's why it is not a diet but a change in lifestyle.