Saturday, September 12, 2009
I met with a friend tonight for the first time in over 6 months. She has been steadily losing weight and I learned tonight that she's 5 lbs away from losing 100 lbs. Holy moly. She's looking really good.
I used to think to myself... being SUPER honest here... that she was the "fat one" and that as long as I was looking thinner than her, I'd be okay. NOW I'm the fat one in the friendship and really, it's motivation for me. Not that I want either of us to be FAT, it's just a wake-up call.
I realized that I've lost... (counting...) about the same amount of weight she had over my adulthood (95 lbs), but that it has been because I've lost weight then gained it back and lost it again and gained it back AGAIN. She's a good role model for working consistently at it. However, some of her habits are not so healthy. I know she smokes and that she eats very little. She does workout regularly, so that's what I need to emulate.
I was trying on different tops tonight before we got together and it frustrated me that I had to find something kind of baggy to "hide" my fat. I know the clothes don't really hide it, but I am less self-conscious when I wear certain things. I don't want to have to find a baggy top just to feel comfortable going out to dinner or for drinks after work. I want to be confident in whatever I choose to wear, and that is big. Choosing what to wear without hoping it hides my fat will be a good feeling.
I am down 1 lbs since Saturday. Slow and steady, slow and steady. Here's to getting rid of 35 lbs of fat by my reunion!