Friday, September 11, 2009
Today's blog is very difficult for me. I was turned away at the Blood Bank because my weight is too low for my platelet count; and my platelet count was much lower than ever before. A decent enough level, but not for my weight and not for my history. The pheresis machine would not allow me to be hooked up.
I had tried (successfully) to lower the amount of cholesterol consumed - there was no change whatsoever on my cholesterol count - and all it accomplished was to lower my platelet count because of eating less meat products. The protein and fiber in black-eye peas is extraordinary but I guess it will not make platelets. Some of us really do need to eat meat products.
I do not have a cholesterol problem and never have. My walking is a natural way to lower my cholesterol. My platelet donation is a natural form of blood thinner.
I was advised to gain back 5 lbs.
After much soul-searching while driving home I told Ray of my thoughts. He loves the new me. Before he could say anything I acknowledged that it was a cop-out on my part because he loved the old me too, even at 210 lbs. He said he loves me at any weight and thinks 125 would be terrific.
I told him I really like wearing size 4 jeans. But I admitted that is only vanity. I want to be healthy and I had decided that if I was ever turned away from the Blood Bank it would mean my weight was too low for my body. Today that happened.
I made a Pro-Con list in my head and all the reasons to stay where I am have nothing to do with health. Yes I do feel great but I worry about occasional dizziness too. I have plenty of energy but I feel a sugar drain sometimes and need a mint. I am a borderline case of blood sugar; I can go either way, high or low. This is because my father has a low blood sugar and my mother had high blood sugar. The doctor said this combination often shows up in the offspring as borderline.
It was not an easy decision, but it was an educated decision to add a couple of pounds to my weight and see where I am in 2 lbs and hopefully in 2 weeks.
This gives new meaning to One day at a time, One pound at a time.
**edit 9/12- I have decided to go for the entire 5 lbs as recommended!
123 is a beautiful number! I have changed my weight ticker to reflect 123 but no, I didn't gain 5 lbs overnight. Today I am 119.1 again. Tomorrow? We shall see! But this way I am now eating to maintain 123 lbs and my Nutrition Tracker is reflecting this as I gain.
My goal is to have a Zero Deficit or even a Negative Deficit for a slow gain back up to 123!