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falling backward

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

for the last week i have been struggling inside myself trying to decide if this journey will ever see an end. I fight with myself over what i should feel and what i actually do. my anxiety has taken a turn for the worse and i am consumed with feelings of failure. my scale refuses to give me a break and argues with me daily over those horrific numbers. why can i never be at peace with the person i am and the person i have worked so hard to become..it always comes back to those numbers. i have come close, really close to once again giving up on this lifestyle change, unsure of my ability to really change. the person who i once was really is no more but the numbers haunt my every thought and feeling trying to make me believe i can not succeed in my change........
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RICH530 9/10/2009 8:31AM

    Shiela, you have come so far! I know they are just words but they are so true! We all struggle with those numbers. If we could just get past them it would be so much easier. I do the same thing everyday. Often I feel the same as you do. I try to remind myself not how I looked or what size I wore but how I felt before I began this tough journey. I don't want to feel like that again and I am sure you do not either!!! You can do this. We are all here to help and support you!! Know that you can call on me any time if there is anything I can do for you!!! I will be thinking of you and sending positive energy yoor way!!!!

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S_HANSEN 9/9/2009 9:26PM

    Wow, you have come so far to leave this journey now. We all struggle with exactly what you described in your blog. We all fight with the numbers and ourselves wondering if this lifestyle is ever going to pay off. It will get better. Maybe you just need to relax a little and not do more than you can handle. Pick a couple of things you can do that don't take a lot of work and go from there. I am thinking of you and wishing you much success.
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-DEBY- 9/9/2009 5:51PM

    (((((SHEILA)))))) know this my friend...
You are not alone... most of us are also
struggling to make this a lifestyle change...
REMEMBER.... we are here for you...


I am honoring you my Dear friend through your
Process and time of decision making

blessins allways
deby

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