Day #8 I really am not happy at the moment.
Monday, September 07, 2009
So today is the evening of the 8th day. I have been enduring stomach upset, nausea, intense heartburn. Last night i only slept about one hour. Normally i always had some tummy trouble at night. but now going vegan it seems to be a normal daily occurrence with me. I am excited that i have made it 8 days. I do feel however that my resolve could melt away on seconds notice. When i went to the grocery store today, to pick up some medicine for my stomach. I almost got a piece of fried chicken, the smell, the look was just so wonderful. I did resist, not so much for myself, but for my wife. i did not want to disappoint her. That's all i have for now. i am not in a great place at the moment in my thinking. I'm angry that i cant have what i want, when i want it. So childish i know. I also now i have had 37 years of having everything i wanted to eat. I was never told no, and i never told myself no. So anyway, i am unhappy, angry. sad, excited,sick, pissed off. etc etc etc. Love ya all & myself. Harv.