Friday, September 04, 2009
I miss speding time with ANDALEX and sparking together and I think part of why I allowed myself to fall off the wagon was I no longer had a Sprak Buddy. Not her fault at all but life sneaked up on me and I was no longer able to make trips out to see her.
So anyway in order to make this a succesful go I have asked my co-worker to join and she has. Even better we share an office so at least I have someone from Mon-Fri to cheer me on and vise versa. It's not just about support either. It's peer pressure. I need to have someone be dissappointed in me when I don't stick to it. I need to behave because someone is watching. To the same end I have asked my boyfreinf to please not only support me but to check up on me too. He was part of my undoing before telling me I looked just fine and that I fussed too much about the diet, and we were always going out to eat, being mutual food lover. But I think he has seen in the past year as I've "filled back out again, and slowed down energy wise that I need the dicipline and structure of the Spark Plan. So hopefully he will be more supportive this time.
I really do not want to ride the weight roller coaster the rest of my life, but sometimes, thinking about my genetics, and the way I love food I feel a bit doomed to. I just pray I learn to keep it under control before it's too late.