Friday, September 04, 2009
Well today I woke up at 5am coughing so much I was gagging, isn't asthma a wonderful disease???? I wish it upon EVERYONE!!! Ok, maybe a bit dramatic, but lets face it when there is a medical issue affecting the mass populace the doctors and scientists find way to fix it if not cure it. Lets look at bird flue for example. So therefore if the majority of people had asthma there would be a LOT better treatments out there if not a CURE.
Since this past Monday I have been living off my inhalers, which I think they were just keeping the inevitable attack at bay. So this morning I finally broke down and called my new pcp who I have yet to meet and asked, more like begged, for a prescription for my nebulizer since all the albuterol solution I had was already expired for about 2yrs now. Yes its been that long since I've needed it.
And I think I know why all this came on, I'm a social smoker, yes and I happen to be the brightest crayon in the box.......since when I was diagnosed with asthma at age 5, I only had 25% lung capacity. See, told ya I was the brightest crayon in the box.
I just got to break this pattern that has been going on for about 5yrs now. When the weather starts getting cold and/or I can't breathe, I stop smoking. But when the weather starts getting warm again and I tend to be in more and more social situations where people are smoking I start to bum smokes. Which inevitably means I start buying packs and smoking only when I go out to a bar or club which then turns into I smoke when I drive turning my 1 pack a month into 1 pack a week.
I know I NEED to quit, and stay that way, and it shouldn't be all that tough for me since I hardly smoke, but it is! But its a love hate relationship, I LOVE to smoke but my asthma HATES it.