Afraid.....Why am I so afraid???
Thursday, September 03, 2009
I have noticed lately.....I am afraid. I am afraid of things I never used to be afraid of. I am paranoid of things that in my early 20's never bothered me. Like heights, other peoples driving, and once a person told me "your allergic to change".
I have tried to chop some of it to "age" and getting older. My 31st birthday was not one I like to celebrate. I cried!!! So I ask myself, what is going on?? How does this play in my wanting to loose weight and have a "better" and healthier life?
It has EVERYTHING to do with it!!! I am afraid if I don't loose weight.....Husband being unattracted to me, can't do things I once was able to, Hello "HEART ATTACK"!!!!!
I am afraid of loosing also! Afraid of loosing and regainning, not liking to exercise, slipping into old habits,repetitive same old boring food, and the biggest one "FAILURE".
Wow, what a relief just telling everyone, and anyone listening! I AM AFRAID!!!!
It's ok for me to be a afraid!!! The only way to get past it, is to "WORK" threw it right? Then I will prevail and not be afraid anymore!