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Afraid.....Why am I so afraid???

Thursday, September 03, 2009

I have noticed lately.....I am afraid. I am afraid of things I never used to be afraid of. I am paranoid of things that in my early 20's never bothered me. Like heights, other peoples driving, and once a person told me "your allergic to change".
I have tried to chop some of it to "age" and getting older. My 31st birthday was not one I like to celebrate. I cried!!! So I ask myself, what is going on?? How does this play in my wanting to loose weight and have a "better" and healthier life?
It has EVERYTHING to do with it!!! I am afraid if I don't loose weight.....Husband being unattracted to me, can't do things I once was able to, Hello "HEART ATTACK"!!!!!
I am afraid of loosing also! Afraid of loosing and regainning, not liking to exercise, slipping into old habits,repetitive same old boring food, and the biggest one "FAILURE".

Wow, what a relief just telling everyone, and anyone listening! I AM AFRAID!!!!
It's ok for me to be a afraid!!! The only way to get past it, is to "WORK" threw it right? Then I will prevail and not be afraid anymore!
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    I am also afraid of alot a things. I am trying to work thru it also. I think it will make us stronger when we finally do accomplish what we are afraid of. we can do it.
    2602 days ago
    Some fear is good. Some times it is something that motivates us into change. Sometimes it is crippling. It stops u from making the changes u want to do , or need to do. Only u can decide which way it will go. positive or negative. In your case i believe it is a positive. i want to lose weight and look good for me. emoticon
    2606 days ago
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