Wednesday, September 02, 2009
I am having such a hard time. I quit four days ago and I am struggling. I tried chantix and vomited all the time. I am currently on wellbutrin and that doesnt seem to be doing anything. I tried a hypnosis cd and that didnt help. Four days ago, I made a choice to quit. I felt so strong and now I feel so weak. I keep thinking just one cigarette, just one drag.. please.. I have not been able to leave the house because I am scared to be around smokers.I am having trouble sleeping so I am exhausted. I've been snappy with my family, when they havent done anything wrong. Weight loss?? Not a chance right now. I even called a hypnotherapist and that costs $600 !! I can't afford that. :o( I know it may not seem like it but usually I am such a positive person but not anymore. I don't even want to get out of bed.Can quitting smoking cause depression? I have smoked a pack a day for the past 15 years with two breaks in between. Pregnant with my daughter and chantix last year helped me last four months but I started again because I gained twenty pounds in 4 months!!! I am losing my mind... there has got to be a less painful way !! For the love of God !! I just want to smoke but then I'll feel like such a failure. Right now I'm so down in the dumps.. it feels like a no win situation. I am putting my story out there because I am desperate !!!