Friday, August 28, 2009
Ok I am going to forget about failing, that is not an option anymore. I have to stop thinking if I make a mistake it is the end and just give up, I have to tell myself, ok you ate something you shouldn't have it's not the end of the world, just do better tomorrow. I am so hard on myself sometimes. This is not a diet, it is a change of life. I have been over weight my whole life, but I realized even when I am fat, if I was just thinking about what I ate and made better choices I felt better about myself.
I make unrealistic goals and then that just sets me up for failure, when I don't reach them, I just through my hands up and say forget it I have been overweight my whole life that is never going to change. But it can change and I know that by reading and looking at other peoples spark pages, that even the very big can loose if they just keep trying.
I want to lose this weight so that I can look in a mirror and love the person that I see, I will never be "skinny", but I can be healthy and feel so much better about myself.